Preparing me For a No-Fun Summer

I think the process of acquiring reproductive technology is directly related to God's desire to prepare us for little ones. It's lengthy. There's alot of excitement, but alot of waiting. You never get to do things your way, on your time, and you have to sacrifice alot of other fun things in life in order to make room for this. I imagine being a mom is like this, but with more love.

Until we decided to forge ahead with fertility treatments early (or 2.5 years late, depending on your viewpoint), I had big plans for this summer. Muscles and I are travelers... do-ers. To begin with, my birthday gift from the hubby was an airline ticket to El Paso to visit the Military Wife best friend. Sweet, I know. I haven't gotten around to purchasing it yet, though, because we are still waiting to find out when I can go. You see, I have to essentially be available at any moment once this madness begins. I will be scheduled to have various tests done throughout my cycle, checking my hormone levels and egg production. I will be on different types of shots and medications in order to make everything happen at maximum capacity. Then, when the time comes, I will be given another shot to tell my eggs to get out of my ovaries and into appropriate, babymaking areas. When that happens, of course, the both of us have to be available to go actually have the procedure done. Then we wait for two loooooong weeks to see if it worked. Be prepared for a depressing, pessimistic post if it does not.

And then, the entire process begins again. So, you see, I am perpetually unavailable this summer. Other plans that this eliminates include (but are not limited to) a vacation to Ocean City, Maryland and a long weekend, girls trip to the beach.

On another note, it is necessary to abstain from drinking to achieve optimal results. I have no problem with this, and neither does Muscles -- other than that, it is easy for us to forget in social situations -- however, our friends don't quite understand. I think it sometimes makes them feel better if there is no sober judgement present to remind them of their behavior the next day.

Anyway, even though I'm sad about the lack of vacations in my life this summer, I am continuing to be constantly excited about the prospect of parenthood. One of my two best friends from childhood (and still today), had a baby girl herself yesterday. Growing up like sisters, it is natural that I feel like this baby is my niece already. I told her mom a week or two ago about my daydreams of having a daughter myself one day, and the four of us bonding. She said that perhaps I would have a son, and then we could officially be family one day if they married each other. It's all silly, I know, but I can't wait to see what's in store for all of us. :)